Tuesday, September 2, 2008

Veni Vidi Vici

His eyelids sprung open, however this time he did not panic. Sand or snow, black or white, blurry or clear, he was ready for whatever would be thrown at him next. He began to access his senses and could not help but let a smirk run across his finally relaxed face. It was not a desert or an arctic pole that he was laying in, but the comforting warmth of his bed and blankets. What felt like an eternity, was only two hours, for it had only been that long since he got into bed. He is only human, one, like any another, controlled by the ever consequential mind. He, she, you, all of them, and all of us have experienced turmoil. We all have our worries, but that is not the root of the problem.
The root of the problem is the trajectory of this notorious mind. We worry about the past and the future, but never about the present. Why is that? Why do we not worry about the time we are wasting, worrying? The answer to that lies in the eyes through which u see the world; what you identify as important, and worth worrying about. What is interesting about that is no matter the perspective you have of your world, it is without a doubt a selfish one. Why do we worry about our financial problems and not our neighbors'? Do I "deserve" to live a better life, or do I just "want "to? We are greedy, and it is because of that we are sad. We mourn, our dead relative or close friend; do we not want them to move on to a better place? Are we really mourning the fact that the person has died or the fact that "we" will not be able to see said person anymore? We face devastating anguish when we do not get what we want, no matter what it is, money, power, happiness, love, etc… Even when a friend has a successful relationship, we might feel envious. Does our selfishness know no boundaries?
Your selfishness is measured by your ability to mold your minds. You control your mind, and through it your emotions. The trick is to compare how good is coming out of everything in our lives. It's the same concept as value for money. Enduring pain for something you may not have is never the right thing to do. All you have to do is make a positive gesture, and if you're supposed to have it, it will come to you minus all the unnecessary pain and hard work.
However that is not what we do is it? No, instead we escape into our minds, falling in mental sand traps, facing confusion and unease, and trying to solve problems which exist only in our own minds. Sadly, we do not recognize that the way to escape the cruel reality that is our selfishness, is by teaching ourselves that happiness is not about having what we want, but wanting what we have.
We have concurred the world, yet we failed to concur ourselves.